Please Excuse the Dramatics

so today?
instead of fighting the tears...
I let them all come out.
well not definitely not all...because i feel more coming even in this moment.

second thoughts. deep breathing. and perspiration.

first week of school and already i had to fight tears all day today.

"does administration hate you or something?!?!" what a lovely thing to say to me. thanks for that. very thoughtful.

the air conditioning has been broken. not like i ever have air conditioning in my classroom, but at least usually i am able to suck it through from the adjoining classroom by keeping the door to the outside slightly ajar.

i sweat. all day.

my co-worker came into my classroom on day 2. she's been working at our school for 30+ years...and i love her. love her personality.

she comes up close, holds her hand up to "shield"? her speech from the 18 little goos, and says, "i just am thankful i didn't have a gynecologist appointment yesterday! because ewwww--weeee i wouldve had to change or something!"

oh dear.

oh my.

yes. thankfully you did not have one of those appointments. we are all thrilled. (and some of us a little mortified, thank you very much.)

la cantina

she had her back to him when she answered,
"you know i've always loved you. there has always been special love for you in my heart."

he didnt hesitate. not even for a moment.
"show me."

she didn't meet his eyes as she shook her head.

"do it," he said. "reach into your chest, unzip it and show me."
so.
she did.

farewell summer!

this week was our back to school welcome breakfast. it was extra celebratory because our school went from a 'B' grade to an 'A'. (points earned from standardized testing)

I have to say that it was lovely to see everyone so fresh and so clean, clean.  I actually enjoyed myself! going back this year seems so different on so many levels...shifts in relationships, a newly painted room! omg i spent almost 9 hours painting my room by myself. the only help i had was the sweetest little 10 year old boy taking the painter's tape from the base boards (never mind the grumblings of having to bend over to accomplish this) (promises of watermelon chewing gum cleared that right up!)...and handing me my "oops!" rag. it was definitely worth it... and everyone loves the bright happiness it brings.

i love how teaching gives the opportunity of feeling renewed. Every year is a chance for a new beginning...a fresh start...and i'm loving it now like i never have before. it compliments my personality beautifully.

how do people work at the same job for 12 months a year???
i've always said, 'oh i love being a teacher, but i dont want to be a teacher for 20+ years...blah blah blah" but why the hell not?!?!? summer vacations?!?! the best schedule ever?!? every holiday paid for and off?? medical insurance? etc, etc, etc... never mind that i adore the students and have fun working.

hmmm..i might just stay awhile.

DIY or DIE

hahaa i'm such a dork BUT i know the anticipation for Pride Project part II is killing everyone who reads this (all 3 of you) but alas! i have a new blog! with no drama! no emotional baggage! could it be?!?!??!!?! one that i can actually share with the public! now...you might be wondering if there are no dramatics! too....but YEAH RIGHT. not even! (ok its seriously bed time)
so check out my new DIY blog. it's super cool...even though if you do read this you've seen 95% of the projects posted there. but hey! some things are better the second time around! ohhhh and just look at my new cafe curtains! how lovely! right?!?!? RIGHT?!?!? tell me how lovely they are (there, of course). YAY!
http://projectshishkabob.blogspot.com/

silent awakening

"When you transform your whole dream, magic just happens in your life.  What you need comes to you easily because spirit moves freely through you. This is the mastery of intent, the mastery of the spirit, the mastery of love, the mastery of gratitude, and the mastery of life.  This is the path to personal freedom."
-Don Miguel Ruiz

love in its highest form is perfect balance

    I will be in New Mexico from July 16th-20th...with my girlfriend.

you should call me. we should get together. you should want to. please?

pride project 2009 part I

before

after

(i do believe that is some tricep definition---just sayin')

holy shit

Libra Love Horoscope
You are likely to distance yourself from others now, feeling the need to withdraw and reflect. Your thoughts are inclined to be heavy and pessimistic at this time, so it would be good to realize that you are only seeing part of the picture. This can also be a time of leaving, separating from relationships and choosing a new way.